August 17, 2003

runner

they said i must.
even though i’m tired of always being told to
by someone i can stand,
i do it anyway.
who know’s why i can’t go against them.
it’s my overwhelming need to achieve,
to appease.
happily they take my intentions
half heartedly knowing that it’s better
then what they get from all the others,
who really don’t give a damn
about what they what,
because it’s all about them anyway.
so, it is job by job
i drag their expectations, in my bag, behind me
knowing i’m never going to rid myself of them.
to free myself of them completely
until i decide to do it my way.
but, who am i to think that my way will work
anyway?
my way, it does sound rather nifty when i say it that way.
with the gusto and a grin.
with the umpf that says, “i know i’m something more then a runner.”

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